Disguise

I asked to breakup with someone last night. He called, and I confirmed. Yeah. That was it. Short and simple. Won't hurt much. He needs time on his own. As he begged me to stay, I remember what I did last time when I was with my ex. Someone said the exact words I said to my ex back then. But right now, I don't feel like being in a relationship with anyone. Why?

Because...

I can see the pain living in his eyes
And I know how hard he tries
He deserves to have much more
I can feel his heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All he's ever meant to my life

"I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong "


"You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye"

He deserves the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing him is painful to me

"You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye"

That's the song that hit me when I told him, goodnight. :)

He really means a lot to me. But I never felt him in my heart.

I need more time alone that's all.

Single but not available. Finally, I get that lable! LOL